“A few years ago, I was crying and whining at my mom and sister while I was really drunk. I asked my mom and sister… it wasn’t long after we’d moved. I asked them if they were happy. I got drunk and woke up my entire sleeping family, like some ahjussi. It had been my number one goal in life, you know, to make my mom and sister happy. They both woke up and told me they were happy. But I was so envious at the fact that they were able to reply that they were, indeed, happy. Because it wasn’t like that for me. I told them while sobbing: I want to be happy too. Then I felt like I’d done my mom and sister wrong. But from then on, I started contemplating about happiness. For about six months, I pondered specifically over what I would need to do to become happy. I think that time of transformation has come. I think I need to be happy, now. I must become happy. I am going to be happy.”
Rest in Peace. You will be missed, our dear Jonghyun. Life may have been cruel now, but I hope you find another life where you’ll achieve your happiness. Sing on in heaven, and watch over the boys and shawols you left behind. We aren’t angry, we aren’t going to curse you, you won’t be remembered for how you died but for how you lived. You touched millions of hearts and graced a gift upon this world that can never be replaced. You’ll live on in our hearts and within the happiest memories we shared these last ten years. Go In peace, this is our final goodbye.Let’s meet again.
Today, I lost someone I deeply admired to depression and suicide. Wish there was something I could have done to let him know he was deeply loved.
So heartbreaking to know that he was struggling and thought this was the only way out.
You inspired me with your beautiful music, with your fight for LGTBQ+ in Korea and your opines about certain topics.
Rest in peace, Kim Jong-Hyun. Really hope that, wherever you are, you don’t have to deal with the loneliness and sadness you felt. Love you so much.
“Please tell me i did well in this life.” Baby, you did more than well. You had saved so many people. I am so proud of you. Why must you leave us this soon? I love you.
thank you for being a shining light to us all. thank you for the laughter and the memories…the strength you showed while suffering inside. we will never be able to express our gratitude for everything that you gave to us. we will remember you forever and miss you. until we meet again, shine bright in the heavens. may you rest in peace.
“Why? That’s what I keep asking. Was there anything I could have said or done? I had no clue you were masking a troubled soul. God only knows what went wrong and why you’d leave the stage in the middle of a song. Why? There’s no comprehending but who am I to try to judge or explain? Oh, but I do have one burning question. Who told you life wasn’t worth the fight? They were wrong. They lied. Now you’re gone and we cry. ‘Cause it’s not like you to walk away in the middle of a song – your absolutely beautiful song.”
You were the brightest star in the whole sky, Kim Jonghyun, and the world is going to be a darker place without you in it. Wherever you are, I hope it’s paradise. Please look after us, protect us, love us forever, and we promise to do the same for Jinki, Kibum, Minho and Taemin. Thank you for your heart, your spirit, your voice, your smile, and please know that the impact you left on this world, and all the joy you spread in your 27 years, will last forever.
remember how fast jonghyun would speak whenever he’s nervous. it was a cute lil habit of his
remember how jonghyun never learned how to ride a bicycle until he was 23 and when he finally learned how to, his new bike got stolen and had to go back to the bike shop the next day, apologized to the bike owner and bought a new one (only to find out a year or two later that minho was the one behind the bike theft)
remember how jonghyun always somehow managed to get a lot of sm’s youtube channel and would post cute n wholesome clips of his dog roo
remember how much love and support jonghyun gave to taemin with his solo career and how much he adored “dracula oppa”/ his “fairy prince”
remember how jonghyun fell asleep on the couch and minho recreation of that famous michelangelo painting and key posted it on weibo
remember how jonghyun got mad from said event so he decided to post 473828292 memes of minho as payback (and just always posted memes of the rest of the members on twitter lol)
remember how when jonghyun and onew first met, jonghyun thought he was older than him and dragged onew around the sm building speaking informally. and when he found out the next day that onew was older he got super embarrassed
remember how much jonghyun loved playing that damn kazoo of his, his live version of beautiful tonight > anything really
remember how the members were asked how many hats did kibum own and jonghyun instantly raised his hand in 0.000000001 seconds and got the answer correct
remember how jonghyun thought it was a good idea to walk to the airport with a dog mask on his head just so he could make everyone laugh
remember how much jonghyun cared for his older sister songdam and always had her as his phone wallpaper
remember how much jonghyun cared for his mother who he loved so dearly and said she was always his biggest influencer
feel free to reblog and add on your own favorite memories of him if you want <3
